swensenssss

went back to my place wid nessa..
she slept there soooo happily..


then headed out to orchard where we were late..
like usual..surprisingly,shann was early!!!!!!
haha
at swensens,
so we ate and ate and ate...
and they ordered ice cream while i copied nessa's bio book..
the bill came up to $$177
then went to walk a little.. and then home..
reached back round 11 plus 12?
tired...
then got news from another fan of the concert..
shoots...will plan...

i have like sooooooo many pictures to post but blogger doesn't let me any more!!!!!

stupid shit!

marie: the song's called 'girl on tv'

to everyone else: thx..just a weird emo entry.. one of those moments again..

the feeling of nothingness

i dun noe why..mood was just bad..
actually i do know why..
but i don't wanna admit it..
nothing to do with my friends at all..
jaspreet,it's really not u guys..so..ya...
**
does everyone go thru this depression stage where they think they're the center of the world and tt as long as they are sad,the world should be sad too? others don't have the tiniest right to smile and laugh around them..cause they are actually thinking of dying.. life has no meaning? why are they still typing an entry on thir blog when everything sucks and it would be better for them to stop life once and for all? then they think is it that bad? as it really isn't,life still goes on..as much pain one feels,it is possible to feel one million times the joy one day? is that what keeps them living..helping them thru the fucked up days they have to endure at this point of time? when they are at that stage,are they feeling angry? sad? or just nothing? just nothing.. it is scary to feel nothing as they don't give a shit about anything! their family members could just pass away and they feel nothing..as they think..so what? life already sucks to the max,nothing can make it worse.. that's nothingness.. they could fail and drop out of school,have no income and walk around with no money to eat. then they think so what? hungry so what? nothing matters,i may be hungry but i don't care. nothingness..
**
"IT" is a sensitive issue..it has always been..
but today,my temper flared like 8 times due to it..
tried to cover it up as i know i'm wrong to show it.
but i can't control it.
i'm sorry to those who actually witnessed it.
i walked a way as fast as i could already.. i'm sorry..
if i could control the feelings that flame at those seconds i would..
but at least i can control shutting my mouth before i start lashing out..
that's the least i could do..
sorry peepz..
**
yesterday passed my assessment..like..thank god..
and then did a small thing to let me regret.. i apologise to u too..but then it'll nvr reach you..
s'pore idol at mediacorp was fun..
i'm a jonathan fan..but i'm an even bigger fan of jonathan's brother's friend..
he is sooooooooo goodlooking!
eye-poppingly goodlooking!
jonathan's brother had the EXACT same face as him..it's was damn werid..
we could spot levin's brothers n sisters..or mabbe cousins..they have the same nose n mouth!! and levin looks like JR!!!!!

-trying to smile

SuperJunior

lemme intro SUPERJUNIOR TO ALL OF U!!!!
*loves...
this is SiWon!

this is leeteuk whose pics have been up in the previous post..

KiBum!! My first superjunior love!!!

YeSung!!

SungMin!!!stupid susu..bluff me...

i kinda expected it to be a lie but then i couldn't take the chance u see...

wateva...

i'm so excited for our project!! heh heh!!

tml got clinical assessment..scared sia..

hopefully finish early then rush to mediacorp IF we're still going..

-bleah-

new template

it's a new template..
changed a couple of stuff frm the original..
like,the pic..it's my ear..
and the 'angel' navigations..
everyone's studying for clinical while i'm here changing my template..
slept at 2 plus...
obviously not enuf sleep..especially wen i oni had 5 hrs of sleep on sat nite..
i'm dead..
goin wid nessa to eat crystal jade..
cheers me up a little more..
listening to ''miracle'' by super junior..
i'm in love again..
with leeteuk.. AMAZING!

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another bored day..

"another bored day.."
wen i typed this as the title of this entry,a pop down wrote "another happi dae!"wen i typed another..
which means there was an entry before wid the title "another happi dae!"
like..wen was the last time wen i was THAT happi?
cup?? LH?? Zxx??
i guess..
anyway..no feelings at all..
mabbe cup's was really really strong..
supposedly 'absence makes the heart grow fonder?'
like..not happening...
mabbe it's the same wid nessa n abang..
haha..i rmb the times where i would be sooo happy and be thinking:"ohhhh must blog NOW!! yay! i love my life!!!"
haha..wad a joke...
hope it all comes back soon..
i love the happy me..
tho i noe most peepz get SUPER annoyed but..tt's just me..or shud i say,was me til i started PMSing..
i'm sorry..

home whole day

woke at 2 plus..
home the whole day..
playing sims like hell..
well..
dreams.
no.
live.
go.
nothing.
what else.
real.
smile.today
cup.
Z.
blue.
fuck.
die.


yay~
i love my superjunior..
ki-bum...
leetuek...
*loves..only..

andy day..

it was an "Axxx Day" today..
he just kept popping up..
at mac's and during elective..it was like 3-4 times of his name..
we did the write up on the movie and Tang VERY PROUDLY went to e-plaza and typed n printed it..
i being the 'MODEL student' obviously did it at home..
i'm at Compassville shopping centre..the library..(wherever THAT is..)

ate Jack's place.. the steak..like OMG..*LOL
amazing...mum ate the spring chicken and angel ate the escargoes.. eeewwwwwww
but the steak was AMAZING!!!!! full like hell..
nessa?? are u like reading?!!
haha

Almira after a long day..haha
***
the week has ben thoroughly PMSed by me..
but today was plain emo.. it seems stupid to feel so much..
u guys,i noe u guys are laughing at me..
but i could have cried..
i know it's stupid..i'll laugh at myself too if i weren't me.. but i am..
i noe how i feel..i feel how i'm feeling,you guys dun.... AT ALL..
that's enuf to say tt tis stupidness would NEVER be understood..this sucks..
so u dun actually have that much of the right to laugh..becoz u dun noe..

fuck u and go!

headache

MASSIVE headache..
watched the show.. bleah....
anyway..Johnny Messner is HOT!!!!
*LOL
my LAKE..

boredom day....

Taylor won AMI..it's like another "Ruben-won-though-it-shud-have-been-Clay"

i hate clinical assessments..

i hate theory tests..

i hate ICAs..

i hate clinical attachments..

i hate studying and cleaning backside..

-bleah-

pictures up..ICAs done..

a couple of pics from almira's party last week..
still got somemore but blogger got problem AGAIN!!
at least got some up..
so..nessa,it's NOT my fault dun have u..
pls blame the computer haha..
finally 2 ICAs are over..
but the stressful ones are yet to be completed at all..
crap.....

PMS helll!!!!!

i feel horrid..i doubt my PMS has been tis bad before..
crap day!
bad mood hell..
the WHOLE day!!!
stupid com got problem..can't upload the bday party's pictures..
crap..
the whole day was a piss off...
irritated over the tiniest of things..-bleah-
walked past the neighbour's place and smelt the home cooked food..
crap...miss the old times..
everyday 7pm the whole family eat together,watch chl 8,7pm show together..
eat fruits after dinner toether..
now...
well,i have my computer to welcome me back i guess
there are pluses to living 'alone' but too many minuses too..
watever..life is life..
crap shit fuck

almira's 2nd b'day..

Almira's 2nd birthday..
nessa n joyce came over early to help wid the deco n the eating..
LOL
ate like hell..haha
SOOOOOOO many children!!
*faints!
watched rain live in new york thingy..HOT!!

5566

it's 12 am..
just reached home..listening to xiezhi toking on 933 fm
they're saying they ate the cow's eye a bit bigger than golf ball etc..
wen they bit there was a juicy feeling and it went *POP and all the black juices came out..
school was damn sian la..and then we watched some movie which NONE of us paid attention to.
and the lecturer said at the end of it tt we were to do some write up..
crap......
anyway,jamie came over and we went to meet joanne for 56..
went to Marina Long Beach..like OMG
they were in the private room n sitong booked the table right outside the room..
but there was just NO feelings at all..
they walked out to the toilet n wen going off,they walked past our table..
but i didn't actually look..
the seafood fried rice is like...NICE!
theni just rmb xiezhi kinda hiding behind mengzhe..
then on to oriental hotel then we fang che n went home..
i've agreed wid jamie tt this will be our last time..
i'm just so bo-chap bout them now..
like,i didn't even notice wat colour zhi wore just now..
i dun even listen to their music..
i'm soo over the 'screaming and running' stage..
yess..it's over.haha
i think most of u guys,stella n peepz will probably be saying:"AT LAST she's matured"
haha..i guess..

tired hell

i totally blame nessa for keeping me awake til 12 plus....
i'm drinking my ribena which shiqa n marie bought from cheers for me long long this afternoon..
kinda forgotten all about it til now..
i proudly declare tt i drooled on the library chair just now while we were supposed to be ''doing our project''
kinda had a sian night clinical lab class..
first time i never listen to my fav teacher,roger..
coz i was sleeping on the lab bed half the time..
the other half was spent taking pictures..

skool

it'll NEVER stop being a sian day..
i SWEAR!!!
school = sian
unless..ya..
anyway...things are weird..
i'm sure u noe..
but there's just no explaination so i'll leave it be..
anyway,had the talk which was boring-ness widout *bastard..
too bad..LOL
tang went thru her memories all over again..
tsk tsk tsk..
*tang goes* Quack Quack Quack!!
hahahahaha!!
played sims til now..
headache is coming back again..
shall slp now..

another happy dae..

i dunno why..i get soo high wen we have bio lab..
the whole day was a joke yet again..
laughing away..
then on the way back in the bus,me n farhana saw this mixed blood guy..
OMG hotness!!! his face was..OMG heart stopping hell!!!!!
TOTALLY!! goatee,white shirt,jeans..*faints..
Farhana still go take pic of his hair!!!!!!
both of us coud not keep our eyes off him pls!
then we continued the bus ride laughing bout:"Like Lis,SomeSing.."
*LOL
***
Carol Burnett is soo cool pls!!! if i could speak like her..wahhhhhh..
watched TV and guess wat ppl??
Project Runway is backkkkkkkkkk!!!
yay!!!!
wanna watch {"Devil Wears Prada"} once it comes out in theatres!!
***

word of the entry-deja vu-The illusion of having already experienced something actually being experienced for the first time

it's mother's day..just came back..from a BLOODY FULL lunch steamboat buffet..
ytd,went to bernard's place..
i SHALL complain!!!
not happy at all!!!!
i wanna complain about wat an AMAZING class we have..
AMAZING!!!!! TOTALLY UNITED!!!
i'm sure most of u agree wid me!!
TOTALLY cooperative..
i have tried to make it as united but ppl just REFUSE!!
so u noe wat? i dun care anymore la..like...whatever!
we soo did not stay over..
but the plus of ytd was i found my "Rape Of Nanking" book!!
woots!!!!!!
i had to BEG bernard to lend me..haha
he is just plain nice la..buy so much food for us..
they all borrow his clothes,bathe there.. etc..
**
and i have been eating like..OMG..sooo much for the last 3 days..
winnie's BBQ:Salmon,pork chop,sausages(nessa drools),buffalo wings
bernard's place:chicken curry(NICE!! spicy!!),charsiew bao,the potato thing,siew mai,fried rice
today's mother's day lunch:steam boat,beef,wanton,pork ball,prawn ball,oyster,prawns,chicken rice,lots and lots of wine..
i,Angelyn Tan,am proud to proclaim tt i dun drink liquor,alcohol,beer..BUT i do drink ALOT of wine..
haha!
i LOVE wine..i think i have to credit shann's dad for tt..
letting me have my first sip in sec skool,i've loved it since..
**
here's a pic from just now..
Sam,Angel,Almira,Mum,Grandma,Me,AuntyMay,Michelle and baby Alester..

**
word of the entry-Holocaust-means..

1. Great destruction resulting in the extensive loss of life, especially by fire.
2. A massive slaughter

out the whole dae!!

went k box,winnie and ker came over to pack my room a little..
then went to winnie's place to BBQ and play badminton wid her two very cute cousins,6 n 4..
eat til full like hell!!
so now nessa n winnie are in my room packing somemore!!
haha!! they who pack soooooo well..no idea how they can do it sia!
later will watch final destination then go sleep..
HOPEFULLY can squeeze into the bed la hor..
can't wait for tml..goin to lecturer's place heh heh!!

word of the entry!!
RANCID means
1.Having the disagreeable odor or taste of decomposing oils or fats; rank.
2. Repugnant; nasty

to bling*

BLING* ROCKS!!!!!!!
LUUUUUUURVEEEE u..until my dy-ing day..
come wat may..
COME wat may..
i will LUUUUUUUUUURVEEEEEE u........
UNTIL MY DYING DAY DAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY [the moulin rouge song?]
haha!
***
thx bling..seriously thanks..
bling* who has finished memorizing the 6 stages of the Kohlberg's theory during her yr 1 is helping me type out her summarized notes and sending it to me later!!
so this is my kiss to u ya?? *LOL!!

had an amazing time today..

it seems tt i'm gonna continue laughing all my life

just every day there is something sooo funny to laugh at..

BUT the down side of it all is me being violated like hell!!

stupid farhana n peepz..

touch touch touch..-bleah-

so IDIOOOOT!!!!!

lab rocked as usual.. wid roger around..haha..he's REALLY good

jaspreet calls him 'Angelyn's fav teacher'

in fact he shud be honoured,considering the fact i hate teachers and lecturers..

but he is realli amazing..he shud get the *Amazing teacher award!*

he shud be full time,not just part time..

he's soo sooooo patient wid us..

and we dun actually need to concentrate or anything but watever he teaches is just remembered..

we dun even feel like we're studying or learning..but we are..

*sigh..hope this whole year and next year all the night classes are by him..

*smilez..

can't wait for tml's k-boxing

and can't wait for the slpover at bernard's..

it's gonna be fun..i hope..*LOL..

talk talk talk yak yak yak

today was a sian day!
ok,not realli
ah..watever! everyday is a sian day..
went to skool later then supposed..
then finished skool at 1..
BUT
we,the HARDWORK-ERS,me,tang,jas n marie stayed til 5pm in skool
why?? to do PROJECT
BUT
did we do it?? nope.. we read sum stuffs and called it a day..
how did we take 4 hours to read info of like 2 pages?
well,there were GOSSIPS in between u see...
thus...4 hours to read stage 4,5 and 6 of kolhberg's(however u speel it) model..
*LOL
we are DEAD!!!!!!!
we sure had lots to tok about..
example:

• sex
• marriage to wat races
• wat kinda guys
• virginity til marriage
• my bullying
• CGH cute guys
• jas' gym trainer
• angmohs
• classmates
• the whole staring thing
• the X factor

EVERYTHING under the sun tt did not have anything to do wid our project,we talked..

tsk tsk tsk

*shakes head*

got news frm joanne tt my ZHI ZAI coming..i think i'm prepared to LOVE tt dear of mine again..

*lol..

yay!

fri-kbox

sat-bernard stay over

next fri-woots........!!! my darlin!