complacency

Days like these.
How do i defend myself is the question in mind.
But then again, why should i?
Where is this insane urge to get everyone's smile and approval coming from?

I need to stop this madness of wanting to be in everyone's goods books.
If you aren't happy, fuck you.
But the recent years have been making me a coward.
There is a huge ass discomfort in my chest once there is a slight smudge of unhappiness towards me.

Where is this cowardice coming from???

Let's take a deep breath and step out for a while.

The way things were and now..
Too much of a difference
It's disgusting to see.

I would like a break, yes, the break was long and recent. I know. But it's just not enough.
It's never enough
Being here and crowded is just too much.

Will anything ever settle down?