you.

Shaari oh Shaari.
Was on e phone wid yazid and thought of you.
Went to ur FB and went thru ur wall.
Im sorry i still have not visited you.
Sighhhh my heart aches so badly,the tears won't stop and e nose is blocked.
Honestly,haven't dug u up from my heart for quite some time.
Im sorry. I'll make it next week,even if i were to be alone.
It's my personal promise.
Just want to visit you,show u i care
Cause you were important.
As zid said,i didnt have a chance to tell u much before you left.
He's way closer,but i love you too.
I still remember how the hugs felt coz u were so big.
I still remember so fucking clearly that morning Yazid called me.
I was asleep.
Woke to see a miss call from Zuraidah and sense something wrong,
But went back to sleep, 5mins later Yazid called and i answered.
He said those words in sucha quiet voice.
The exact words still ring.
And then there was silence.
It didnt register and i said to him "How?" He didnt noe. I replied that i'll call him back.
And then everything was a blur.
Never again.
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miss u so.
cant stand e heartache.