you.

Shaari oh Shaari.
Was on e phone wid yazid and thought of you.
Went to ur FB and went thru ur wall.
Im sorry i still have not visited you.
Sighhhh my heart aches so badly,the tears won't stop and e nose is blocked.
Honestly,haven't dug u up from my heart for quite some time.
Im sorry. I'll make it next week,even if i were to be alone.
It's my personal promise.
Just want to visit you,show u i care
Cause you were important.
As zid said,i didnt have a chance to tell u much before you left.
He's way closer,but i love you too.
I still remember how the hugs felt coz u were so big.
I still remember so fucking clearly that morning Yazid called me.
I was asleep.
Woke to see a miss call from Zuraidah and sense something wrong,
But went back to sleep, 5mins later Yazid called and i answered.
He said those words in sucha quiet voice.
The exact words still ring.
And then there was silence.
It didnt register and i said to him "How?" He didnt noe. I replied that i'll call him back.
And then everything was a blur.
Never again.
*
miss u so.
cant stand e heartache.

new chapter hopefully

too much.

We seeing Beast was too much.

Suffered from fever and very bad sunburns

But tt last look at Doojoon in e van smiling was even more "toomuch"

LOL!!!

Many many events have passed.
Saw Leekuanyew at the YOG concert

Saw and shook President nathan's hand for Istana Nurse's Day

Saw darlin Doojoon

And today,i went down to SIM to apply for my Degree.

Shock much? Til now,i still don't believe i did it.

We'll hafta wait til November to see if they actually want me. GPA is as low as 0.

wahahaha

If this falls through,it's e beginning of a new chapter. Anxious as anxiety can be.

*prays

Lookin forward to Bigbang,2ne1 and beast's comeback in Sept.
Then we'll fastforward to Oct where they might drop by.

Then fastforward again to Nov for e big Barvaria Trip.

Then to Jan where Japan is KIV and Suju's SS3 is confirmeddddd *jumps.
Then Feb is the start of being a student again (if it's all smooth)

=D

BEAST!!!!

OMGGG
got back from YOG celebration concert
*Everyday i shock SHOCK!
*Everynight i shock SHOCK!
Beast!! Doojoonie is sooo hawtttttt
Me and Joyce waited for 12hrs!!
Freakin tanned. I mean BURNT!!
but... the moment we saw him wave and smile from e van,we were 16 yr olds all over again!!

bavaria/austria

If god permits,i'll see u in nov. LOL!

1-8 degrees,good luck to our soon-to-be-frozen-asses.

OMG

too excited.

I've always wanted to see this,and may this want happen.