ur lost.

Sometimes i wonder,if u've given up on us
and u just pretend.
Or are u really back on my side?
Where's the trust?
I know u show be asking me that ques,
But it's not coming to me at all for u at all.
Again and again i have reasons not to trust you.
And i dun understand.
I rather such things happen without me knowing,
rather be stupid and not know anything, than to know tt i can't trust you.
Today's the last straw.
Im not gonna fight for this anymore.
I'll let it be coz im so freakin sick of all these.
I'll stop trying in the ward.
Stop fearing.
All these need to be left behind. I give up.
And somehow there's a huge sigh of relief.