thanks for standing by me2

i opened my blogger home wid the intention of scolding and venting

but it's alrite,i've been thinking

why shud i bother?

so i shant.

the sweetest thing just happened on friendster..

samuel,from mentorship camp sent me a happy birthday msg.

tang:can u believe it?

lol..

like,even tho it's still far and i dun actually wanna think tt i'm getting older,

he could actually be bothered even tho we ain't close.

some people are just nice

=)

after talking to marie

and the b'day msg from samuel

and the HINTS from nang nang

and after sexy's comments to me about our love

i actually think god is telling me that i have important ppl by my side

and tt some ppl dun deserve my emotions.

quoted from tang,

"Life goes on."

one more time,and i won't give face

=)

thanks for standing by me

to marie:

thanks sooo much,i almost cried.

=)))

i knew u'll be by me,but there was a smallest doubt

can't blame me,i mean,seeing how stuff turned out..

but i'm currently assured..

you're much loved by me!!!!

=)))

thanks.

happy 29th ivan!

marie's back.

i'm sooo happy she's back

it got me thinking on my home from driving

if she was wid me in PRCP,

watever tt's bothering me so much now wouldn't have mattered

it would have probably not been noticed at all

but it is as it is.

And so i thank god for nessa in the ward

this week wid opposite shifts have been quite horrible

but i survived

things can actually get scarily clear..

i'm having sucha headache.

i dun care.

Happy Birthday to Ivan Loh.

=))

i need to blog!!!!!!

the nakedness..

the nakednessssssss

wahahhahahahaha!!!!!!

cannot make it!!!

=))

Happy 19th..

=)

nessa's probabbly done wid my 4 page long b'day "card"

=)))

hope u loved my countless "CANNOT MAKE ITssss"

muahaa.. ok,totally UNcreative presents this year,i'm sorry!

i wud wrap ahbang up and send him to ur doorstep but i can't..

u can TRY kidnapping cup tho..

=))))))

anyway,ward was good today,

i've learnt to take more initiative..

let's see how the week goes.

Husband VS Cannot-Make-It.

-Draw-

cruise

back from the cruise..

Cao ge was fantastic.

I SHALL love PRCP from tml onwards.

i HAVE to learn to love it..

i SHALL take initiative from now on.

and i SHALL graduate smoothly.

happy birthday tml nessa..

=)

(i'm beginning to dislike my blog.)

one last thing: cannot make it is SOOOO cannot make it pls!

can't stand some ppl.

can't stand it.

slap.

prcp suckkkssssss

just read tang's blog.

i'm DAMN stressed too!!

but cud it be becoz of a TOTALLY opposite reason?!?!?!

i have NOTHING to do..

or rather,i dun noe wat to do at all..

i dunno so many things

i dunno most things

i dunno ANYTHING!

fuck la.

how?

i can oni look forward to cannot make it and my cruise on fri..

=(

marie la. shiok,go bangkok somemore.

=(

PRCP!

done wid day 1.

i wonder how everyone else's PRCP went?

all i noe is my sister is DAMN nice,

she's starting wid the basics like suctioning and terUmo pump

if she's grading,i doubt can fail la.

anyway.

yes.

GOOD NEWS!

we at CGH dun hafta work on weekends AT ALL

all PH is as normal attachment,which is OFF.

our shift is all like attachment,

not follow a certain staff nurse's schedule,

so it's ONE BIG GROUP TOGETHER...

=))

good sia!

then the best part is nite shift on mon,tues,wed

then thurs,fri,sat,sun OFF!

waha!!

pls congratualate me NOW!

i'm un-depressed now!!

oh ya..

plaza singapura is here too!

LOL!!

there SHALL be a good 3 months ahead of me

depression.

i'm superbly depressed now.

u wanna noe how depressed i am??

the ans is VERY!!!

• mabbe it's the fact tt everyone's going out and i'm not
• mabbe it's the fact tt i haven't booked my TP
• mabbe it's the fact tt i can't win the elite 4 in my pokemon game
• mabbe it's the fact tt PRCP starts like.. TOMORROW
• mabbe it's the fact tt marie xiuxiu wun be there the whole 12 weeks
• mabbe it's the fact tt i've finished ALL my ricola blackcurrant sweets
• mabbe it's the fact tt i have to give up my weekends for nursing

watever it is

i am feeling VERY DEPRESSED.

dun talk to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

{i shall go to facebook and slap ppl to feel better..}

migraine hell

woke wid very a bad cough

cancelled driving ytd,

cancelled zoo this morning,

cancelled work tonite.

marie's nail thing's cancelled too.. sorry..

i'm just sitting in my non-airconditioned room,

contently eating my Ikea meatballs.

mum bought a new 1kg pack for me again.

muahaha!

the migraine was so bad just now that i cried la.

stupidity.

mabbe the 18-migraineless years are catching up wid me this time.

NO GOOD!

boredom yet restricted.

bye money

money died.

my dad messaged me this morning,waking me.

it said:

"Money just died while we crossed the road. E car drive so fast.Blood all over."

then i want to look for money's pictures in my com

but realised i deleted his folder when i was lacking of hard disk space

i guess i always tot i'll be able to take more

the hard truth is that now,i don't have a single pic to remember him by..

u'll be missed

sickkkkk

It's been 3 days since i switched on my com.

coz i've been quite sick,and i SHALL NOT BLAME MARIE TAN

for passing me the cough anymore.

SHALL NOT SAY TT IT'S ALL HER FAULT..

even tho IT WAS.

i'm online to listen to marie's fabulous 'let's go to the park' thingy..

so shall blog,nothing to say bout OT la. like that lor.

seriously just make ppl sleep, cut ppl and sew ppl.......

marie forwarded this horoscope email,first sentence already zun ready.

=)

SAGITTARIUS - The Happy-Go-Lucky One

Good-natured optimist.

Doesn't want to grow up (Peter Pan Syndrome).

Indulges self.

Boastful.

Likes luxuries and gambling.

Social and outgoing.

Doesn't like responsibilities.

Often fantasizes.

Impatient.

Fun to be around.

Having lots of friends.

Flirtatious.

Doesn't like rules.

Sometimes hypocritical.

Dislikes being confined - tight spaces or even tight clothes.

Doesn't like being doubted.

Beautiful inside and out.

Too true.

missing dabo

it seems almost forgotten why i moved out in the first place.

no one talks bout dabo anymore.

like he was never here.

like he was never the cause of so many events there after.

watever it is,one thing's for sure.

can't be forgotten,not tt i even wanna try...

zouk 3rd nov

New song on blog. current FAVOURITE OF FAVOURITES song

my ben baby sing one.. * grins..

Zouk last nite..

fun fun,but not CRAZY.

=))

drank lambo for the first time,realli quite nice.

straight away flame up sia...

danced like hell,my fav part was roti prata

worst part was astro boy part.

fuck.

heart almost jumped out can,marie oso shock,

lucky it's not,i think i was about to cry.

dunno la..

Tangwee and Mazda.. NOT FAIR!

oh.. we saw the superstar darren guy,

think he wanted to dance wid yen xin la

but in the end move away.. act cool oni..

*rolls eyes.

oni managed to sleep til 11 plus sia.. oso dunno why.

mabbe coz marie WOULDN'T stop snoring next to me. lol..

tonite! i shall sleep early for the sick of OT.

[awaiting candy's upload of pics.....]

today's a good day..
a good day outta many bad days..
the only happy thing tt happened this whole week,
was the fact tt Burke proposed to Christina on GA..
and today. today was GOOD!
watched 'game plan' wid nessa... woohoo
LOVED it.
and saw Mr nice eyes at P.S..
surprise surprise.
clubbing tml,can't wait..

go crazyyyy

why?

sigh,so many probs..
something's up at work,with me right smack

in the middle of the huge prob and 'cause'.
why me?!?!?!?!
watever.. tt guy's an asshole.

and..
quarrelled wid pa before i left for work..
he asked me to move out.
YA WAT!!!
he's so gonna blame his sleeping pills for it tml but dun care la..
i guess i'm REALLY meant to go home soon
so,soon shall be tomorrow.
watever..............
fbut i'm not sad nor angry..
i SHOULD BE.. but watever..
i'm just annoyed by.. i dunno wat
but i'm annoyed..
i should feel something.
Like nessa said: somethings really

happen at the RIGHT TIME..
basket.
everything at one time,

mabbe i shud get drunk on sat after all

..

driving was bad,got scolded a couple of times..
=(
dunno how i'm ever gonna be ready for TP la..
awaiting nang nang to wake up.

moving house

i dun understand.
why give me such pain?
WHY?
story: mum sent me to work a couple of days back and asked:
"when are u gonna come home?"
I said:"dunno,not intending to at the moment"
"then if u realli staying at ur dad's,u might as well move out all ur stuff then i can stop paying Aunty May rent each month.."
i keep quiet,like.... watever.
Like WHERE can all my stuff go??? tot she just tokin shit to get me home..

so today,Aunty May calls and asks:
"eh.. u moving out ah?"
*silence*
"when u wanna move out? then i can rent out the room.."
"dunno yet, why suddenly liddat?"
"dunno,ur mum say u staying wid ur bro? so if u move out u dun need to bring furniture rite?"
obviously she's thinking of renting a fully furnished room for a higher price.
fuckin bitches.. all the same.

WTF,i nvr say realli move move wat,i'm just comfy at my dad's..
i mean,wat if SOMETHING happens,then wat? i have NO WHERE to go?
make me cry.. fuck.
guess i better move back. soon.
for the time being,back forth..
superbly pissed,my SO CALLED family.. wat's wid chasing me out?
do u find joy in hurting me so much?!?!?!
fuck.

went out for dinner wid Gladys and sis,Sheralynn.
Crystal Jade at Paragon cost us 94 bucks.. (0_O)

today was a day for fei lun hai.
BUT couldn't help sleeping away.
joyce too,as expected neither of us woke.
lol